family

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bitter

i said thank you for the ticket and the ride

and you threw it in my face

i tried to open your mind up, real wide

and you stared into space

i gave you my time and conversation

you gave me rolled eyes

i struggled with lust and temptation

your remedies were lies

you were happier without me around

then whined when i left

for not giving my plans any sound

you accuse me of theft

you want a medal for raising a child

you tried to turn into a trophy

but there are no rewards in the wild

only bug bites and a road fee

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wires, ice and prison's price

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hanging on a kite tail

talking to statues

you should do what you want

do what you want

do what you want

sometimes when you talk

your words are like velvet

i'm crawlin' on

scratchin' my back on velvet

and all the warnings and all the cures

could never be enough

to stop me

at all

and everyday, you let someone into your heart

you let a crowd control your voice

how do you ever know if you're saying what you mean?

thirty is one thousand and i've had a month alone

you're the most far away and it's all work

you've been on vacation

yeah, i'm doin' all the work

but now i find that life could be free

wouldn't have to pay for you

no more

no more

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say hello to hell and watch it burn

the bigger the ego, the harder the fall

the harder the fall, the less it will hurt

shock kicks in and then you sail

hail the chemical, let it squirt

your body don't like when the mind is ill

psychosomatic, it's only you

don't blame it on the devil's will

control the spirit and undo

welcome terror with open arms

and see how it subsides

it's confused, there's no alarms

only a sucker hides

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playful hurting and bigtime lies

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hide and seek for adults

where to find love

it's not up, it's not down

not below or above

the sky or the ground

it's not in the kitchen

it's not in the tub

maybe it's switchin'

from bush to shrub

i checked the drawers

and in the backyard

between the floors

and under my guard

it's not in the woods

it's not in the fields

it's not in the goods

my hope still yeilds

i sniffed the grass

still! no luck

i smelt your ass

and jesus, fuck!

it sure wasn't there

here is some soap

to give up is fair

but don't you mope

maybe you'll find

in due time

another mind

you can mime

and if you don't

you'll be screwed

i probably won't

so swing my mood

in the park, on the slide

i drink spirits while i glide

try to see it for a ride

i tried my pride, then i lied

looked up at a star

and i figured out

i'm stuck in jar

so i can't sprout

i smash myself on a post

ouch, i say, as i boast

no one sees 'cause i'm a ghost

a narrator and a host

so i'll tell my stories

i suppose it's best

without the glories

and off my chest

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third eye lullabies

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fight or flight

my body is a trap held up by spun wool

it itches and scratches and feels too full

i turn and breathe, foresight hurts

stability comes but only in spurts

the blood behind my skin whirls like a storm

drops to my toes and turns very warm

then, like death, it turns straight to ice

my pores raining, my hands like dice

the two hemispheres of my brain collide

one of them laughed while the other cried

i peel my face off of the bathroom floor

it's gone, but now, it's back for more

my face turned grey like a sky in fall

my head pulsates and i begin to crawl

there's a circus here, my heart the main act

elephants tortured, the bleachers packed

they pull my veins like wires from their place

they sew them to a dress all made of lace

my organs switch spots and my eyes roll back

i called out for help to the king, queen and jack

my frame swollen up now flattens to the ground

it's a joke to them, it seems, i have found

so i unravel my spirit up from my depths

collect all they've tortured and take two steps

my veins, they can have, my organs too

they'll squeeze my breasts until they're blue

perception is a tent that shakes and unzips

i stepped out the back and threw them my lips

skulls are protection from running into walls

i dropped mine beside my childhood dolls

my spirit emerged from the scorn and the piss

spinning and dreaming, i have found my bliss

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inspired by my panic attacks

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panic_attack