"nothing can change but your willingness to change" -Unknown

samsara riviera

why did you bring me back

to start from scratch?

strike my chords with a

phoenix match

slow down to catch up and

snails don't hatch

cocaine membrane

i need an eye patch

'cause i ripped one out with

a volcano's fury

didn't need it anyway

i saw all blurry

you brought me back to live again

told me what, not how or when

gave me suicide and a pen

a lot of love and no fit men

a brain that sinks and skips the beats

misses cues and takes big leaps

white skin that burns and burns and seeps

a sheepish voice, fingers that creep

so many jokes i don't find funny

doctor, i don't have any money

my bread is soggy, my eggs are runny

i'm sorry i'm not happy when it's sunny

i try to stay in the present time

with big dreams in the back of my mind

old men grab me, they try to grind

they want to pay to tap my behind

i am absolutely full of regret

ready to take back all my bets

give me trials, give me them sweats

i'd swallow the fuel from all those jets

those flights i took so far away

hoping someone would miss my ways

at least a face to shine a ray

there's only crowds in stacks of hay

and no one missed me

i made no mark

left no impression and no spark

carved no one's names on no oak's bark

only empty wine bottles in the park

i have lost the ability to fall in lust

a gust of wind took my whole trust

my heart is punk, it's full of puss

and i will squirt you with it, if i must

© Copyright Miss Carly Marie 2008-2012

i am stuck in a 1950's french film not yet made

heavenly hosts

there is a stampede of rats

coming down the corridors

they are running away

from the barren farm

everybody screams

and jumps

trying to grab an angel's hand

or some invisible monkey bar

to lift them up

their calf muscles spring their skeletons

into the air

for a few feet, anyway

and then they come down

hard

and rat guts squirt into their eyes

i know to just

stand still and

grind my teeth

and

press my eyelids together

feeling little claws scamper

across my feet and

ankles

until it's over

© Copyright Miss Carly Marie 2008-2012