fertility born of instability
There is only one fist that can penetrate my chest
Only one hand that can squeeze it so
There is only one mouth that can bring me down
So low I don’t know where to go
Equal parts empathy and disgust
Hard as rocks and frail as dust
Someone I can always trust
Strong as steel about to rust
She provides the bullet and the ambulance
The clarity and the awful trance
The joy that makes me jump and dance
Predetermination and a chance
She is the fight I always have to lose
The hope I always have to have
The cut that just won’t heal or bruise
The ointment I need for the scab
She is the child that refuses to eat
The mercy-hungry sinner
The priest who enjoys red meat
Advanced as a beginner
Though I love her more than life
It is only out of self-respect
That I refuse the pain and the strife
Born of her mind’s self-neglect
I wish she was never hurt
So that she wouldn't hurt me
But oleanders need dirt and
I can defeat what's hereditary
© Copyright Miss Carly Marie 2008-2012
